I miss you...I so wish I could have you back I busy myself to not think about you not being here anymore, it helps slighty but the the loss always seems to catch up that it is real and there is no way of escaping it, I will go and spend a long weekend with mum and dad which I can't wait for, to yet again celebrate your life Paul and connect together and hopefully slighty heal each other...everything is still so weird that you are not here, words can't really convey the true loss of you the empty space is unbearable my dear brother, shine, shine down xxxxxxxxxx