Dearest Paul just when I thought I was healing BAM!!! I miss you and so wish I could just carry on as if everything was still the same but that is just a wish that I know would never be. The empty feeling that I have is so unreal something so not cool that you wouldn't want any to know how I wish I could have you for one more time, hold you, tell you how beautiful you have been in my life. How proud I am of you being my brother and friend ....
if only Paul I don't know where the false sense of coping comes from but it is great at the time until it hits you!!! Life is life and I thank you for being my special brother and friend just wished you where still here.... xxx
alisperes
13th June 2012
Dearest Paul, just when I feel I am starting to cope, I seem to slip backwards!! Funny how your feelings can be up and down. I miss and love as always xxx
Alison
15th May 2012
Dearest Paul, you know what I am feeling right now, I so know you are here and now. I so love knowing that Mum and & I are reading the same special book. I hope Mum gets healing from it, I am excited that I know you are here with me, I get it now, you are in a place that we could only wish to be. 5 months today that you have left in body but not in soul I know you are around me forever, how lucky until we meet again. I will never be scared of dying again Paul, having you to meet me on the other side is quite something xxxxx
Alison
21st April 2012